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[Jun. 26th, 2007|03:30 pm] |
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i kind of miss you.
and i have no idea why ? |
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[Jun. 16th, 2007|12:25 pm] |
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im happy to say ive calmed down alot more since the last time i wrote lol
im still grounded and it sucks. good way to spend a week of summer.
my birthdays in 4 days and im really really excited. i get off grounding && opas with the people i love will be the best way to just get my mind off everything thats happend this past week.
35 more days till the cruise with amanda..yeaaaa im THAT excited to leaave here..even if its only for 5 days.
happy summer vacation everyone : ] |
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[Jun. 13th, 2007|11:23 pm] |
i hate you.
i hate you.
i hate you.
i hate you.
i hate you.
i hate you.
thanks for being a 2-faced jerk and never call me for another favor again.
i never want to to talk to you or see you and if i ever run into you somwhere...expect for me to walk right by you without a single glance.
you never had a problem with meeting up for a lil back seat time..but clearly you have a problem with me and decided to tell everyone else but me.
you'll probably never read this..but it feels good to just get it out there...FUCK YOU ASSHOLE ! |
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[May. 8th, 2007|07:29 pm] |
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prom is in 4 days !!! im so excited but stressed at the same time..so much to do and def. not enough time. i just really hope my mom lets me stay at the hotel. i cant believe in a few more weeks ill be a SENIOR ! its crazy that you can feel 2 completly different emotions bout the same exact thing. im happy to have only a year left and hopefully leave but at the same time its like cooper city has been where i've grown up..its the only place i know and these people have made me who i am today. how can i just leave that and know that when i come back..things wont be the same. this "crew" of people i call my friends that i spend so much time with in schoool and on the weekends are going to be the hardest to say goodbye too next year..and i dont think i can do and say everything that i've wanted to with them in only one more year. im going to miss them.....alot.
P.S...i've made a VERY good change. im anxious to see whats in store for me these next few months. |
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[Apr. 18th, 2007|10:57 pm] |
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gosh so much has happend this past month..its ridiculus.
my whole outlook on life has changed in such a short period of time. i dont even know who i can trust anymore. im starting to think noone. you try so hard to believe that people wont betray or use you or just hurt you in anyway..but anyone that actually believes that is so naieve and gullable. no matter what..people will just always find a way to hurt you..it might not be done on purpose..but it happens and i've learned theres no way of controlling it. thats just life.
if a certain girl reads this..i want you to know that you might think i care when you write little things on ur a/m and do stuff..when honestly i really dont. i dont even think about you in the course of my day cause life without you in it so far..has been soo less dramatic. a small part of me misses you im not gonna lie..but if this is seriously whats gonna happen everytime you just randomly decide to not like me..then its just not worth it. and do me a big favor..as soon as you decide you need something from me..dont you dare think you can just walk inside my house and everything be fine after all this immature shit...you've done it before and i just shrugged it off..but this time, im gonna tell you to walk right back out.
to you boy....screw you.
stop wasting my time. you want this and want that...when i offer it...you dont take it.
i have planned my life around your schedule at times..and thats all done with...
if you want something..your gonna have to wait for me this time.
football is over with and that was one of the only things i always looked forward too...our team is first in our district and im very proud of us =) i cant wait till next season
K.A.B.O ! |
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[Mar. 15th, 2007|11:42 pm] |
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today has been a rollercoaster..ive felt so many different emotions in such a small amount of time. a very good friend of mine lost her abuelo this morning. i felt close with him as well..the memories of trying to hold a conversation with him in spanish while i made no sense at all lol and him helping me with my spanish homework. just always being around whenver i was at her house. he was always present and being there now with him gone is going to feel so different. although a man of few words..his presence in the house just brought a special glow. he will be dearly missed and thought of everyday. my blessings go out to the Millares family. RIP Abuelo...we love you <33 |
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[Mar. 11th, 2007|11:41 am] |
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things have been so hectic and busy. its gotten to the point where i have something to do everyday. and most of the time more then one thing. my friends abuelo has been in the hospital for a while now and isnt doing well. im gonna go see him again today. he was the kinda of grandpa that was alwaysss around for everything so i felt close with him as well. she called me crying last night and the only thing i knew to do was just drive over there and spend the night with her while her parents stayed at the hospital. i know this is gonna be a really tough week for her =(
on a brighter note, we played our first game yesterday against coral glades at the dolphins practice dome. it was pretty amazing..even though the game was like a "preseason" thing and doesnt count..we still kicked butt !! 27-12. soo much fun and i cant wait till tuesday when we play our first actual game against archbishop..everyone should go..4 o clock at their school. look for number 20 =)
C.DOUBLE O.P.E.R......COOP COOP THATS WHO WE ARE !! =) |
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[Mar. 6th, 2007|06:46 pm] |
"the biggest regrets in life are the chances you never take."
this is so true...right ?
stop being afraid and confused boy and just take the chance.........please.
you never know when your going to get the opportunity again..and when your finally ready...it might not be there. |
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[Feb. 19th, 2007|10:53 pm] |
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ive been laughing so much lately. i love it. it feels really good. and i notice its usually at night with random aim convos with people that just know wht to say to make me laugh hysterically lol. those are the people i want in my life. those are the people that i need in my life. the ones that i can just ALWAYS count on to make me happy no matter what mood im in. i dont even need to ask them either. they just do it on their own naturally. im done with negativity in my life. if you think bad thoughts, then bad things will happen. if i feel stressed or overwhelmed, my new solution is just goin to be to talk to one of those "make me feel good" friends. you all should know who you are. we talk almost every night becuase i like going to sleep with a big smile on my face.
all my friends have a good characteristic that stands out about them. which is why its so important to surround yourself by different people. when i have a problem, i know exactly which friend to go to depending on what im looking for.
so in conlusion.....
each and every single one of my friends are equally important. there is no best friend. |
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[Feb. 4th, 2007|12:18 pm] |
valentines day is in 10 days.
its the only day almost every girl wants a boyfriend or just that guy figure that is really close and special to them.
&& as usual... i have neither. |
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[Feb. 4th, 2007|12:06 pm] |
so i randomly broke out in hives last night. and i still have no clue from what. i looked it up in this book i have and it said its caused by either allergies, physical irriation, stress, or emotions.
i should break out in hives every night then. |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2007|10:26 am] |
i just realized on my lists of things to do in 2007. im doing number 18 because nobody thought i would try out for a sport (its just not my thing) but im gonna work really hard at flag football and hopefully make the cut ! if not then it doesnt bother me cuz i already have enough going on lol.
emily and sagee. when are our cute 49 tushies gonna hang out ?!?! i miss you girls <3333
its really not necessary to call me 3 times and leave me 2 text messages all within 20 minutes of each other. i got the first ones and i didnt feel like talking. i went to school, practice and then a usual busy friday night at work. i was exhausted. leave me some space..when i want to talk..ill call you. im just exhausted and this was why i want to be single. i just dont have any time. |
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[Feb. 1st, 2007|05:27 pm] |
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im gonna start playing flag football for school and im really excited. i think even though its adding one more thing to my already full schedule..it will be a really good way to just release energy and tension. tomorrow is the pysical and then ill be on the field =)
soo starting next week, my schedule is gonna be a little somehing like this.
monday- school. practice. work
tuesday- school. practice (sometimes game)
wednesday- school. practice. babysitting. work
thursday- school. practice (sometimes game). dance
friday- school. practice. work
saturday- work. sometimes babysitting or more work or if im lucky a night out =)
sunday- volunteering at hospital and sometimes work.
&& even on top of that the normal stuff like homework, church and just anything else i can possible do to get into UF.
im not exactly sure what im getting myself into but ill find a way !
BECOMING A GATOR IS MY FIRST AND ONLY PRIORITY !!!! |
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[Jan. 31st, 2007|03:37 pm] |
why is it that as im sitting here, i cant think of anything to write. does that mean i dont have any feelings at this moment or that i have to many and i just dont know where to begin.
its horrible to think that your being taken advantage of. but what if in a weird way im not because i want what is happening as well. or i at least convince myself that i want it because i know already its the most im going to get. i talk to him about things. he says he understands. but things never change. typical teenage boy. |
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[Jan. 20th, 2007|10:13 am] |
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all this pressure is making me crazy. pressure from my parents, teachers, boys, managers,friends...it never stops! its like okay colleen, a B on ur report card is good..but next time, you should get an A. well what if i dont want to get straight A's. what if i want a couple B's so i always have room to go up rather then just go down.
boys- i dont kno if a specific boy will be reading this, but right now my life is just so hectic and complicated to even think about adding one more bit of pressure in my life. being single is just what im comfortable with right now and i just dont think its the right time for a realtionship. i wouldn't be very fair to you by giving you much attention and you deserve better then that. im sorry.
as for you other boy. we spend alot of nights talking about this and that but like always, nothing im sure will happen. stop teasing me. you know what i want and if your willing to give it to me then step up and take action instead of just talking about it.
right now. my goal is just to do the best i can in my classes, take my tests, apply to colleges and start over somewhere fresh. take what i've learned by living in this small town. all my mistakes, regrets, accomplishments, and advice and just start new. anything is possible. |
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[Jan. 10th, 2007|07:34 pm] |
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do you ever think about what would've happend if you we're never born. like where your family would be, or what your friends might be doing. sometimes i wonder if i had any influence on my friends or how things are in the world by just being here. i wish i could see the world if i wasnt a part of it. just to see if people's life has been better because they knew me or if they would've been better off if they never had met me.
everyone should just think about the kind of influence they have on the people they associate with or how those people are influencing you and your decisions.
just a thought. |
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[Jan. 1st, 2007|07:26 pm] |
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i keep messing things up. i feel so dumb. i just can never catch a break. i really need to back up from everyone and everything and just start fresh. but i dont exactly know where to begin. theres so many things i want to do differently but i dk how to get people to give me a second chance. if anyone has any advice..i would REALLY appreciate it. im so happy 2006 is over with. although it was fun, im just soo ready to start over.
for 2007 i want to...
1.spend more time with family.
2.not trust everyone so easily.
3.visit a crap load of colleges.
4.go to as many concerts as possible.(cant wait for the chili cook off and the fray!)
5.find a boy thats worth taking risks for.
6.put a sun roof in my car.
7.grow a couple inches.
8.stop worrying so much and just let whatever happens happen.
9.change my clothing style.
10.really focus on school.
11.cut fastfood to a minumum of once every 2 weeks.
12.see snow fall.
13.kiss a boy in the rain.
14.keep the cursing to a minumum.
15.really help someone.
16.get one more piercing.
17.not care so much about what people think of me.
18.do something people thought i would never do. (im just not sure exactly what)
19.go to church more.
20.experience new things, new places, and new people
hopefully by the end of the year, i'll have all these things crossed out...wish me luck =) |
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[Dec. 26th, 2006|11:04 am] |
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it's such bullshit.
grow up. |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2006|11:07 pm] |
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friendship is essential, and friendship is hard. everyone needs friends. when you're with them, you can be totally lost, yet feel right at home. you can be heartbroken, yet find yourself giggling uncontrollably. you can be doing something that should be completly boring and realize that you're having the time of your life. but like all the best things in life, friendship takes work. we want friendship to drift magically along on a stream of inside jokes, late-night chats and road trips. but honest conversations, constant forgiveness and compassionate understanding are what buoys up those good times. no friendship floats without them.
you guys know who you are. thanks for always being there.
&& to those who havent always been, i forgive you.
but friendship is a two way thing. you cant expect one to give an inch and another to give a mile. some of you should think about that. |
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[Dec. 20th, 2006|02:18 pm] |
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well christmas is just so much fun! spending all my money on other people is alwayss a blast =] haa NOTTTT but getting gifts in return is always nice. exmas such so badly. i have my hardest day 2morrow and im really stressed out. one more day thank god!
im soo excited cuz im going to see the fray hopefully next month!!! they are amazing =]
the christmas party for work was so much fun but really crazy. im just so happy everyone is alright. hopefully things have calmed down since then. i guess i'll find out when i go to work tonight.
everyone please stay safe over winter break. i know things get out of hand and partying is def. a must but just dont do anything stupid. if your gonna drink make sure u dont drive.
as for you boy. i see things havent changed much. i keep giving in and i really need to stop. you make it so difficult. |
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